The true happiness is just to be ourselves. But in this world many people have to be poker face, FAKE, in order to survive. If we dont understand, why we dont ask? If we dont like it, why we say we like it. If we dont want to do it, why we do. Somtimes fake or poker face needed for good reason. 

During my experience when I stepped down from the mountain, we could see the true friendship and partnership. It’s a bit disgusting seeing some people that do not have the wisdom and lick up the higher management. Surprisingly, these kind of person are usually mediocre, and not at the high position person. While the real higher position person are not acting in that way. They value the partnership and they know that networking is very important. Our networking will form the dot between the dot. But mediocre can not understand and can noy see this. Therefore they will please somebody just for their current position, not based on the value and the attitude he has.

I have chat with old friend. He said that because the business is dropping in Indonesia so he need to come often and stay longer. He was travelling arround in the past and that sacrifice his relationship with his family. Perhaps in another side he gets  all the  credits but he lost his family intimacy and relationship. At the end, what matter is the happiness. Happy to see the kids grow up, happy to enjoy moment with family. 

I have another meet up with a great person. He is a mentor of me and because of his decisions that made me have the opportunity as I am today. In our chat, he mentioned about his dream and his position right now made him has the responsibility to stay and continue doing what he is doing. So, 50:50. We think we are great at high position with high benefits but perhaps we dont really pursue what we wany to in our life. Because of the responsibility. In my love letter to my bosses I indicated the things happened because of my unconscious mind. I dont want to be at that position because it will bound me with the responsibility and its not my dream to be in that way.

Today I met my frenz from oversea. I rarely meet up people who can see opportunity as in my condition and has similar thinking as me. He see it as opportunity which many people couldn’t understand when I told my storie and so I gave them different packages. But this guy is genius. He ha 5 different opportunities for me. He is such a genius guy. 50:50. I dont regret for the decisions i had made because without those I didn’t have this wonderful chat. 

These 2 days, I am making a plan for my journey in every 12 years. In every 12 years, I shall have the target and achievement that Part of my dream. Every 12 years. As I just finished my first one, now I am entering my second 12 years. As I expected totally 4 times, it means I will still continue to learn and grow until I am 70 years old. I hope when I am entering my third circle, I am doing something worlwide exposures and for humanity. I have the list of training and things that I wanna do till my 4th circle of 12 years 🙂

I always say to the team that we are like in learning process. It’s like playing game. In the very beginning of our career we are still level 1, with simple assignment. If we can pass thru it then we will go to the next level and so on. This proccess has no shortcut. We gotta earn it to level 10. Then usually aftwr level 10, you can just continue repeat this last level 10 or you would like to choose another game which has more complexity and difficulty. And you might want to start it from level 1. Because you have the experience into level 10 at the first game, perhaps you can get into level 5 very quickly then gradually improving the skills and capability to level 10 again. And repeat this overall circle again. By this we continiously to have new excitement, new skills, developmeny and go to the biggest most complicated layer; government, worldwide.

Few months before, I was in my very comfort zone. I have less thing to care, I can fo back at 5pm and I can do marketing as I am sure I can be very good at. But I have urgency that I can fall into very confort zone, that I can lose my capability and the skills. Because I will just want to do that one thing that I like. I have the feat can not grow. Then I will become specialist. Therefore I choose another round. I choose the work that I think my skill in the field still low, the work that I am not expert yet..the work that I dont really like it as I am not very familiar with it… the environment that more fierce and tough and in different level of people mangement… somehow I feel happy about that condition… perhaps because I know I am growing my skill, my capability, my experience.

In my first 7 days (5 working days) of my new carrer, somehow I dont feel any regret. Instead, I feel contented. “Knowledge is the best friend” and I think so. I like to learn things and continue learning things. There is a quote saying that we become averagoe of people surrounding us. And I think I am in right direction. I meet up many new friends / network who I can learn from. They are sniors. And not mention in this company, I can explore all information, trainings, to improve my knowledge and skill. I really feel content. And that is the most important one.