Saw two old lady and gentleman on the wheelchair. They both looked sad.

Where is their family?

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Here we go again, roller coaster.

I changed role as I believe partner is the key to scale business. It is a big challenge, indeed, a hot seat, but I agreed to take this ride. Let see how I could grow further this time. Even though if I fail, there is only learning 🙂

Up and down.

Nothing is eternal.

When u have the passion, you creat ego and it continue till you die and born again.

Paricca Samuppada – the chain on dependent origination.

I believein science and logical thinking.

A week ago, I asked someone for clarity and a promise she made. In my surprise, she became angry and upset. She emotionally said many mad words. I expected her to be mature enough to handle this. In the conversation, she came out some envy statement such as “you are the one who get x, get y, get z. People looking for you for the business..”.

At that moment, I do not responded back with emotional words or attack her back at all. Instead, I am emphatic with her. She doesn’t have the confidence about herself, she can’t accept other people could be good as well.

Sometimes we thought people with title should be better, but the truth it, a title doesn’t define people maturity.

We are discussing about people. How are we going to divide the tasks?

Got feedback to avoid competition in internal, we should put only one person to take care all, and the other one take care new tasks, trials.

I was asked to think thru about it.

My answer is still similar.

Invest people, build them so all of them understand the whole business. While, from company perspective, we don’t put all 80% to one person. It’s like you are going to bet, if 80% in one, and fail, all 80% gone. Beside, healthy competition is good.

50:50. Nothing wrong and right. Any result for this, will lead to good things for everyone.

I was in Bali second day, when I woke up, I couldn’t sat or stood. My left body, from hip to toe are all in pain. I barely walk. I felt like my bones were torn apart. And it lasted in that pain until I baxk to Jakarta. Despite of the great pain ever happend in my life, I committed to have the workshop with my partner and the next day, I still committed to share with audience about retail intelligence. But that’s all.

I cancelled all meetings that need me to attend or need me to travel. I started made appointment with neuro doctor on last Thursday. I was asked to do mri scan, and apprantely I was diagnosed with slipped disc (herniated disc). I was advised not to have high mobility at the moment, need to do physiotherapy every day and take several medicines including pain killer.

It has been 5 days and I still work from home. The pain is reduced but not disappear and the issue is not solved. I still can not travel long as in every 10 minutes, I would like to stand. It will be very pain if I sit too long in the car. So, I work from home.

In this “break time”, I think about Arianna’s Thrive. I also finished “High performance mind” online learning with O’Neil.

In between my busy work at home, slip into my mind, what is happiness? Why am I doing what I am doing every day? Is there any alternative of different lifestyle?

I got the good news about promotion and benefit, but my healthy now is in risk.

At last, it’s 50:50.

I was nominating myself and some team members to the most prestigious award of the year in the company on the very last date of submission. I thought our team has done very well for the business and we have good attitude too towards the culture change.

Few weeks later, the announcement was made. None of us won any awards!

I was silent when I saw the announcement email, thinking why we didn’t win any of them.

I checked why others got the awards and made self evaluation.

Indeed, there is always room for improvement.

But then I was thinking, is this really the most prestigious award we should achieve?

Evaluating myself,

Our biggest enemy is ourselves.

In this one year, I manage to beat my own ego. I led the team to the business success and culture change despite of the title and individual contributors role.

I manage to overcome humiliation treatment from people surround me, without fighting back. Instead, brought them together, for same mission.

I have gained lots of improvement and development towards my skills, EQ, attitude, leadership and that made the greatest champion of myself.

And even none of people see the physical award, I did get the greatest one ❤️

I was in the session of Simon Sinek during Inspire. That’s when he revealed about his new book that going to release in Oct 2019.

What he highlighted as infinite Game was so resonated with my own experience.

People tend to think others as their competitors. But for me, my competitors is myself and the time.

I have my own targets and things I need to learn and to experience in certain stage.

“The only enemy in infinite game is ourselves.”

Just made a stupid mistake.

Thinking a lot and couldn’t sleep well.

Brought to scary dream.

But today, I got sharing from another speaker in Youth Conference about mistake.

At last, it’s our choice. We want to live in the “fear” of the mistake or try to find solution and embrace it as very good expensive learning.

We are our own master.